Wednesday, March 18, 2009
How how howww?
I guess i havent really recovered yet. ):
Was really excited to go for dance yesterday cos i havent seen all of them for so long! And ive had too much of lying in bed doing nothing for the past week. So yeah, met bel outside school. I was all like, worried that i couldnt dance properly. Like suddenly have a fever, have fits and die or something. It didnt happen. But something else did.
He was doing S.O.S. clean-ups. I tried doing full out and all, but i got damn tired and giddy. I was like weak. I couldnt believe it. Like, i really dont know if i was really too weak, or if i just gave up. So, i thought i could still push myself so yeah i continued on. He cleaned up black sweat, it wasnt as bad as S.O.S., but i felt like puking and my head was spinning. Lost my balance and stuff.
Then he wanted to clean up gimme more. And everyone was asking if i was okay and all, then i started crying and couldnt stop (so embarrassing). I didnt want to sit out because i already missed out so much and i need to practice. So he was like, "Kaela, are you really okay?!". Then he asked me to sit down. Watched them practice. Couldnt stop smiling cos i am so proud of them. (: Good job Vantage, we can do this!
Got really really nauseas, went home with Yen. Omg even walking down the stairs were damn tiring. Shit, i had no idea i was that weak. Walked home slowly. Sat down at the mrt cos i was tired. ): Aargh i really really want to recover soon. Ive been working so freaking hard for danceworks i cant like die now!!! :'( AHHH. I really wanna perform. I wanna perform my best. But i freaking cant cos my body is so freaking weak. Okay whatever. Hope i dont die again tomorrow.
Have to do my mountain of homework shit.
2:56 PM
